sorry

finally, i realize my 11 years ago's reason why i always ignore, i was afraid with love, where in all relationship, there's must be a pain, evenmore when get a fareweel, sorry for all boys that ever shoot me for this, i'm not means that i was shelfish, only don't wanna get more pain
start from now, i'll try to bring myself in the way =)

but i don't like when you expressed in the virtual world ^^ sorry

anyway, at this month i'm very happy to realize my true identity ^^ altough i can't do all things like a long time ago

13 juli 2014

sori ya temen", jujur aku juga ngarep banget bisa kesana sama kalian, aku pengen tau disana kayak apa, aku juga pas bilang pertama kali sama *A*I ga di bolehin, tapi beliau khawatirin aku banget & terancam ga di bolehin, kemaren aku udah bilang bakalan pergi sama kalian, ada harapan dibolehin, tapi sekarang kalian aku bilang ga dibolehin, aku juga keberatan sii, makannya  aku ga ngomong apa" dulu ke beliau =)

bisi berubah pikiran nanti, makanya aku bilangnya gitu sama kalian, tapi ga maksud boong koq =)

ya udah, aku bilang gitu juga, bukan itung"an ya kawan", tapi sekarang aku sadar aku udah dewasa, aku harus mikir panjang sebelum bertindak, aku ga boleh mikirin diriku doang, harus semuanya, beneran =)




14 agustus 2014

thanks for a few years that i've wasted with u guys =) first till moments which i've with "so angkara" class are really fun =) and also the other in there high school =) thanks very much you've tried to accept me =) the one which cranky till now  :3 i wanna change became my old personality =) there's no again who will be cranky =) i promise ^^



22 agustus 2014

sorry, i didn't meant to be cynical to you all, not to leave you all, i love you all, guys =) but, if you can't love me as i do, what more can i do ? =) and if i get stress then i seizures, what can we do ? =) my family excatly my parents can do something for that thing =) live in hateness and sadness are an dying me =) i guess =) now i understand who are my true lovers =) my little family =) i must keep save mylife for who wanna see me more =) for who love me =) well, honest me, its hard to leave you guys =) but i can't be awesome as you who can handle seriously anything in yourlife =) i'm not strong enough =) i also not ask to you understand me cause mine is different to you guys =) i just try to be  open to you =) i'm sorry =')