don't give up ^^

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whereas i just have wrote these words several days ago for my percentate ^^

Let’s begin, we ever heard about these words “to be success => effort + wishes” those right, maybe there is one of you don’t understand yet and when you give up, u using GALAU way, god always listening always understanding, i want to give you an advice, don’t always used that way, those only could make you come to a deeper depression and pessimiistic, even make you couldn’t want to get up again, remember, during you not die yet, you still have means to do in your life

Future is unpredictable, i just figure it out after i watch mario teguh, and that is quiet logical remind Future is depend on what you do now, don’t hoping for “only want to be happy” cause life is never flat, there must be some problem, whatever that is, you must have to get ready to overcome,  These steps might can help to make you desire to effort

First you must understand your goal which don’t you crush yet, or you can know what’s your need, alltough often failed, it’s nevermind to try more and more, if we lose at the first time, please try again, no one know that you’ll win in next time, time is round, clock is round, even earth that  we stampede is round, so, say never to give up and never say never to try more

If you had a bad past before, just try to forgive your fault before, it will make you easier to do your step to be a success person, if you have forgived that, whatever fault that will come can be skip cause you have known how to overcome those situation

And pray for your destination is important thing too, god is always listening always understanding, those words are right, but, as i know, god understand what we want when we have tried before, if only pray for, while we not do anything, god only will giving us more exam to knows ; till when we will overcome with that way

dear my best friend i've ever had

hi ^^ whats up my best friend ? ^^ i'm very sorry my best friend ^^ that time i was thinking about ma collage ^^ therefore u don't reply  ma last message ^^ so, i'm thinking very much about you  ^^ but, you seems like don't wanna disturb ^^ i give you time ^^ but you looks like you have new girlfriend now ^^ right ? ^^ actually i wanna cry ^^ but i still have many people who wants me to hold on ma life ^^ and i don't wanna make them disappointed ^^ therefore not necessarily you're ma soulmate ^^ right ? ^^ i ever pomise to maself to not cry anymore ^^ wont hurt maself more ^^ so, congratulation ^^

tadinya aku kira kamu yang bakal bikin aku ngelupain tentang salahku & dia di masa lalu ^^ tadinya aku pengen diyakinkan lagi sama kamu pas kita ketemu nanti ^^ tapi kayaknya ga mungkin ya ^^ hahaha ^^ cieee ^^ aku kegeeran lagi ^^ haha ^^ thanks for fill ma days with cheefulness ^^ you're the best friend i've ever known ^^


21 november 2014

what more you wait for ? ^^ i try to be rigid in front cause i know that man wont heart when he see girl be sad ^^ i dont wont forget anyone anymore ^^ therefore you ^^ never ^^ i also already have no heart to make whoever sad ^^ therefore you ^^ don't you get it ? ^^ i also sad when you sad ^^ and insyaallah i'll be happy when you happy ^^ cause you're my best friend ^^

Selasa, 02 Desember 2014

really ? why do you say so ? don’t say like that please, are u not afraid ?

Well, i ever think like that too when i upset i always hope that i wanna die soon, but slowly i understood, that's so selfish right ? i don’t know either this is right or no ; during you not die yet, you still have means to do, like life for who still loves you ; excactly family, or maybe someone who you love most, and they who waiting for you, maybe i'm one of them, hahaha

If i say that, i always think,  you more far from me day by day, lately never greet me as first before, always me first, like you don’t care about me, are you recognize ? sorry, honestly that’s why i doubted of you for more and more, sorry, i know you’re busy ^^ just enjoy your days ^^



sunday 7 12 2014

do you know ? the only i wait for during this time is you my best friend cause when i with you i feel complete and better 
but, it's up to you, are you wanna hide from me or anything =)i wont mad to moreover hate you  *yang penting halal* hahaha 

 — baik-baik saja 

i'm not dilligent

i'm not dilligent as u think about me. there's many factor that changed me

it start with; when i asking myself why god still make me alive

i recognized the answer

it cause i'm still have meaning to do

i'd correcting my behaviours that make all of people around me can treated me, make me depressed, and i still remember my childhood, i feel that when i was child is more adult than me when i was sick

so, i desire to change as me now ^^ it's crazy ^^ you know ? ^^ ^^ haha ^^

that's my old story ^^ i want no more and when i'm in  collage ^^ those haven't happen yet ^^

not enough till there ^^ in my way to do my desire, i found someone in my mind ^^ someone that like to do a fool thing like saying "zoo" member ^^ like to desperate ^^ so *OO* of he ^^ but he's very nice if he not lured ^^  when i believed that he still can be better ^^ why not ? ^^ it make me more desire to get better ^^ i wanna be in his side ^^ i think i understand how is he feel like ^^ i often hooked and desperate ^^ but i wont as desperate as he ^^ i must say thanks very much to him ^^ but maybe time not pleased me yet ^^ i'll wait for him as long as possible ^^

that's my mind

and i  have a deterrent with my loneliness ; stay at home for a year ^^ without fiends ^^

therefore now, i feels like jailed by people i lovemost ^^ yeah ^^ that's my parents ^^ my *A* always command me to think about learn only ^^ nothing else ^^ even his job only ^^ but i try to understand ^^ he actually love me so much ^^ that's make me think 

he has to grown old ^^ has mind that might be like a child again ^^ that is selfish ^^ i must more adult to overcome ^^

those all enough to make me wanna do my best as good as i can do in this way ^^ a way that i believed choosed by god ^^ only in this way which i waste since i was kid ^^ only in this way i'll be just fine ^^ a way that i can do my best ^^

hehehe

before this, i disapointed, i think u can be better if i do, i think i can change your mind to change to be better, i was wanna cry, but finally i releazed, i need u ^^ to soften me ^^ just u the one who ever do that ^^
one time in this morning i think u're not my soulmate ^^ cause whatever i waste ^^ it's better to get a nice result ^^ altough that way make me sick ^^ i believe that god much know what's the best for myself more than me ^^


then i releazed ^^ no one can change u ^^ except Allah ^^ and god will change someone only if that human started to try to change by ownself  ^^ okay ? ^^ don't give up like.. like i who never give up with u ^^ haha ^^ good luck ^^9

sorry i can't do more better for u ^^  supporting only ^^ i still wanna be your friend ^^ except if u don't want friend like me ^^