don't give up ^^

._.

whereas i just have wrote these words several days ago for my percentate ^^

Let’s begin, we ever heard about these words “to be success => effort + wishes” those right, maybe there is one of you don’t understand yet and when you give up, u using GALAU way, god always listening always understanding, i want to give you an advice, don’t always used that way, those only could make you come to a deeper depression and pessimiistic, even make you couldn’t want to get up again, remember, during you not die yet, you still have means to do in your life

Future is unpredictable, i just figure it out after i watch mario teguh, and that is quiet logical remind Future is depend on what you do now, don’t hoping for “only want to be happy” cause life is never flat, there must be some problem, whatever that is, you must have to get ready to overcome,  These steps might can help to make you desire to effort

First you must understand your goal which don’t you crush yet, or you can know what’s your need, alltough often failed, it’s nevermind to try more and more, if we lose at the first time, please try again, no one know that you’ll win in next time, time is round, clock is round, even earth that  we stampede is round, so, say never to give up and never say never to try more

If you had a bad past before, just try to forgive your fault before, it will make you easier to do your step to be a success person, if you have forgived that, whatever fault that will come can be skip cause you have known how to overcome those situation

And pray for your destination is important thing too, god is always listening always understanding, those words are right, but, as i know, god understand what we want when we have tried before, if only pray for, while we not do anything, god only will giving us more exam to knows ; till when we will overcome with that way

dear my best friend i've ever had

hi ^^ whats up my best friend ? ^^ i'm very sorry my best friend ^^ that time i was thinking about ma collage ^^ therefore u don't reply  ma last message ^^ so, i'm thinking very much about you  ^^ but, you seems like don't wanna disturb ^^ i give you time ^^ but you looks like you have new girlfriend now ^^ right ? ^^ actually i wanna cry ^^ but i still have many people who wants me to hold on ma life ^^ and i don't wanna make them disappointed ^^ therefore not necessarily you're ma soulmate ^^ right ? ^^ i ever pomise to maself to not cry anymore ^^ wont hurt maself more ^^ so, congratulation ^^

tadinya aku kira kamu yang bakal bikin aku ngelupain tentang salahku & dia di masa lalu ^^ tadinya aku pengen diyakinkan lagi sama kamu pas kita ketemu nanti ^^ tapi kayaknya ga mungkin ya ^^ hahaha ^^ cieee ^^ aku kegeeran lagi ^^ haha ^^ thanks for fill ma days with cheefulness ^^ you're the best friend i've ever known ^^


21 november 2014

what more you wait for ? ^^ i try to be rigid in front cause i know that man wont heart when he see girl be sad ^^ i dont wont forget anyone anymore ^^ therefore you ^^ never ^^ i also already have no heart to make whoever sad ^^ therefore you ^^ don't you get it ? ^^ i also sad when you sad ^^ and insyaallah i'll be happy when you happy ^^ cause you're my best friend ^^

Selasa, 02 Desember 2014

really ? why do you say so ? don’t say like that please, are u not afraid ?

Well, i ever think like that too when i upset i always hope that i wanna die soon, but slowly i understood, that's so selfish right ? i don’t know either this is right or no ; during you not die yet, you still have means to do, like life for who still loves you ; excactly family, or maybe someone who you love most, and they who waiting for you, maybe i'm one of them, hahaha

If i say that, i always think,  you more far from me day by day, lately never greet me as first before, always me first, like you don’t care about me, are you recognize ? sorry, honestly that’s why i doubted of you for more and more, sorry, i know you’re busy ^^ just enjoy your days ^^



sunday 7 12 2014

do you know ? the only i wait for during this time is you my best friend cause when i with you i feel complete and better 
but, it's up to you, are you wanna hide from me or anything =)i wont mad to moreover hate you  *yang penting halal* hahaha 

 — baik-baik saja 

i'm not dilligent

i'm not dilligent as u think about me. there's many factor that changed me

it start with; when i asking myself why god still make me alive

i recognized the answer

it cause i'm still have meaning to do

i'd correcting my behaviours that make all of people around me can treated me, make me depressed, and i still remember my childhood, i feel that when i was child is more adult than me when i was sick

so, i desire to change as me now ^^ it's crazy ^^ you know ? ^^ ^^ haha ^^

that's my old story ^^ i want no more and when i'm in  collage ^^ those haven't happen yet ^^

not enough till there ^^ in my way to do my desire, i found someone in my mind ^^ someone that like to do a fool thing like saying "zoo" member ^^ like to desperate ^^ so *OO* of he ^^ but he's very nice if he not lured ^^  when i believed that he still can be better ^^ why not ? ^^ it make me more desire to get better ^^ i wanna be in his side ^^ i think i understand how is he feel like ^^ i often hooked and desperate ^^ but i wont as desperate as he ^^ i must say thanks very much to him ^^ but maybe time not pleased me yet ^^ i'll wait for him as long as possible ^^

that's my mind

and i  have a deterrent with my loneliness ; stay at home for a year ^^ without fiends ^^

therefore now, i feels like jailed by people i lovemost ^^ yeah ^^ that's my parents ^^ my *A* always command me to think about learn only ^^ nothing else ^^ even his job only ^^ but i try to understand ^^ he actually love me so much ^^ that's make me think 

he has to grown old ^^ has mind that might be like a child again ^^ that is selfish ^^ i must more adult to overcome ^^

those all enough to make me wanna do my best as good as i can do in this way ^^ a way that i believed choosed by god ^^ only in this way which i waste since i was kid ^^ only in this way i'll be just fine ^^ a way that i can do my best ^^

hehehe

before this, i disapointed, i think u can be better if i do, i think i can change your mind to change to be better, i was wanna cry, but finally i releazed, i need u ^^ to soften me ^^ just u the one who ever do that ^^
one time in this morning i think u're not my soulmate ^^ cause whatever i waste ^^ it's better to get a nice result ^^ altough that way make me sick ^^ i believe that god much know what's the best for myself more than me ^^


then i releazed ^^ no one can change u ^^ except Allah ^^ and god will change someone only if that human started to try to change by ownself  ^^ okay ? ^^ don't give up like.. like i who never give up with u ^^ haha ^^ good luck ^^9

sorry i can't do more better for u ^^  supporting only ^^ i still wanna be your friend ^^ except if u don't want friend like me ^^

kisah anak pingitan ^^

di rabu pagi awal bulan yang cerah
x & y sedang bercanda
tiba".. disela" pembicaraan

x : gabisa gitu dong ka, itu mah namanya khayalan, kamu kayak anak pingitan deh ^^ ya gimana ya ? kemana" pake supir sii, bilang aja ke *A*I *A*I kaka mau keluar gitu
y : gimana atu ya ? kemana" aja masi diawasin ^^ apa itu anak pingitan ? ^^
x : ya kayak kakak gitu ^^ gabisa kemana"
y : aku masi bisa  sekolah koq ^^ cuma masi diawasin aja
x : kenapa diawasin ? atau kalo ga kaka kasi permen kek, rokok kek ke supir biar dianterin
y : supirnya ga ngerokok ^^ lagian bukan aku yang khawatir ^^ tapi *A*I
x : ooo itu berarti *A*Inya yang over protektif
y : hehehe udah ya aku pulang dulu ^^ makasi ^^ assalamualaikum

keluar dari pintu ^^ masi nunggu supir diruang tunggu

y : *dalam hati* "kejam ih, mereka kan cuma khawatir sama aku, mereka juga pasti udah tau bahaya diluar, keep positif thinking aja deh" *sambil hampir nangis*

y ketemu z

z : udah selesai ? ^^
y : udah ^^ *OA* baru masuk ya ? ^^
z : ya, supirnya mana ? ^^
y : masi daftar kali mba ^^ biasanya aku juga nunggu ^^

beberapa menit kemudian

z : masi belum dateng supirnya ? ^
y : ya, kali,tadi pas aku liat keluar gaada mobilnya

mereka ber2 keluar & ngeliat kesana

z : yang itu kali
y : ya ^^ kali ^^
z : tapi mobil kamu asa tinggi, ini pendek
y : hehehe :p iya ^^ balik lagi yuk ^^

y & z baru duduk, supirnya nongol
supir : udah selesai ? mau nunggu di mobil ka ?
y : iya ^^

di dalem mobil, jendela dibuka, disetelin radio, radionya muterin lagu ldr nya raisa, y nangis

y : mereka cuma mau aku lebi dari mereka [ortu], mereka dulu ga keurus coz anak" ortunya banyak, lagian mereka tau aku yang dulu masi jauh lebi hebat dari aku yang sekarang, aku bisa terima itu, tapi kenapa x yang protes ? pake ngatain aku kayak anak pingitanlah, ortu over protectiflah, emang mereka siapa aku ? pokoknya aku gaboleh drop lagi, sakit hati, sakit badan, pelajaran" & alasan" untuk bertahan & maju yang udah aku dapetin susah payah selama 11 taun ini masa mau aku buang ? i just wanna have my own life :'(

don't keep silent

*OO* =) do you know ? =) i can answer it so soon if i wanna ignore you =) but i don't =) cause actually i wanna accept you as soon as possible =) but if i did it, that's not me ^^ cause my habit is ignoring ^^ haha ^^ we've ever wasted time like this =) right  ? =) you said that =) i'm shocked =) but, finally you got me =) right ? =)  i believe i just need more real things to trust it =) but, please don't leave me like this again =) this time i'm not strong enough without you =) i'll be faithfully to wait for =) i don't wanna forget about you at all  =) now i can't reply you ^^ but next time, i will ^^
but just take it easy =) i'll not force =) and if you want i'll not give you an empty of hope ^^ sure ^^ cause you raised me up ^^ we can pray for each other ^^ right friend  ? ^^ please stay be my best ^^ it's too hard to waste the time without you ='

Surpised

alhamdulillah surpise, kaget banget


tadi malem aku baru dibilangin *A*I ngubah jadwal latian kelompok jadi hari ini, terus aku disuruh nge bbm gini "kata *A*I, kalo ga pada dateng besok, *A*I cincang" taunya di cancle, yaudah, itu bbm tadi sore, jadi, tadi sore mau berangkat ke *A*I, di indramayu, pas udah siap", udah ganti baju, keluar kamar, eeeeeeeeeeeeeeh *a*inya dateng kerumah, ga bilang" mau kerumah teh hahaha

maaf ya nyusahin teh *a*I* & teh a*I* dan anggota kelompokku yang lain =) aku juga kaget da
sungguh, hari" yang.. sesuatu banget, surprise, ngagetin, ngagetin banget, makasi ya

20 september 2014

thanks sob ^^

selamat ultah bandung ^^ i love u {}

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furinkazan

cepat seperti angin
tenang seperti hutan
dahsyat seperti api
diam sepertti gunung

aku tadi nonton the comment, jelasin soal hobi yang bisa ningkatin kecerdasan
1. baca buku -> bisa ngeliat dunia luar
2. main video game -> ningkatin kemampuan tangan & mata [ ga lupa waktu juga ]
3. olahraga -> biar otaknya awet
4. main musik [ sorry lupa]
5. menari -> menyesuaikan ketukan nada dengan gerakan

semoga bermanfaat =)






ipk aku harus bisa tinggi =) mardotillah =) insyaallah =) lancarkanlah ya allah =) lindungilah aku & teman"ku yang udah baik sama aku =) aamiin =)

sorry

finally, i realize my 11 years ago's reason why i always ignore, i was afraid with love, where in all relationship, there's must be a pain, evenmore when get a fareweel, sorry for all boys that ever shoot me for this, i'm not means that i was shelfish, only don't wanna get more pain
start from now, i'll try to bring myself in the way =)

but i don't like when you expressed in the virtual world ^^ sorry

anyway, at this month i'm very happy to realize my true identity ^^ altough i can't do all things like a long time ago

13 juli 2014

sori ya temen", jujur aku juga ngarep banget bisa kesana sama kalian, aku pengen tau disana kayak apa, aku juga pas bilang pertama kali sama *A*I ga di bolehin, tapi beliau khawatirin aku banget & terancam ga di bolehin, kemaren aku udah bilang bakalan pergi sama kalian, ada harapan dibolehin, tapi sekarang kalian aku bilang ga dibolehin, aku juga keberatan sii, makannya  aku ga ngomong apa" dulu ke beliau =)

bisi berubah pikiran nanti, makanya aku bilangnya gitu sama kalian, tapi ga maksud boong koq =)

ya udah, aku bilang gitu juga, bukan itung"an ya kawan", tapi sekarang aku sadar aku udah dewasa, aku harus mikir panjang sebelum bertindak, aku ga boleh mikirin diriku doang, harus semuanya, beneran =)




14 agustus 2014

thanks for a few years that i've wasted with u guys =) first till moments which i've with "so angkara" class are really fun =) and also the other in there high school =) thanks very much you've tried to accept me =) the one which cranky till now  :3 i wanna change became my old personality =) there's no again who will be cranky =) i promise ^^



22 agustus 2014

sorry, i didn't meant to be cynical to you all, not to leave you all, i love you all, guys =) but, if you can't love me as i do, what more can i do ? =) and if i get stress then i seizures, what can we do ? =) my family excatly my parents can do something for that thing =) live in hateness and sadness are an dying me =) i guess =) now i understand who are my true lovers =) my little family =) i must keep save mylife for who wanna see me more =) for who love me =) well, honest me, its hard to leave you guys =) but i can't be awesome as you who can handle seriously anything in yourlife =) i'm not strong enough =) i also not ask to you understand me cause mine is different to you guys =) i just try to be  open to you =) i'm sorry =')

maybe it's my naive side

i'm not mean it, i just lonely

you're my friend, you'll see soon. i'm still save all about you, except the pencil, i was don't know where in hahaha =D although i wont remember all of those[when i felt sick of you] i wont ever forget all whoever be in my lifetime, even those mean that i never change for this side =)

no need to get war of stats anymore with me, cause i looking for gentle humans who will take a direct communication with, so, our will get no misunderstanding =)

then, what must i do ? to make you aren't hide from me ?

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cieee lucu ^^

kameranya.. wkwkwk XD

i don't wanna have a bad dream again

sepercik rindu dariku

Oke, aku kangen mereka, mereka semua yang telah mengisi hari”ku, entah itu hanya untuk beberapa bulan ataupun beberapa taun =’) aku kangen sama kondisi yang dulu, saat semua belum sekotor sekarang, waktu otak semua manusia di dunia masi lumayan bersih dari penyakit, gadget, uang, pikiran yang picik & yang lainnya, sekarang udah sangat jauh berbeda, seakan tuhan YME telah musnah, ya rabb, aku rindu, ampunilah aku

3-6-2014

harus tetap tegar, meski tanpa seorangpun

about two years

it's begin with inadvertence i choose u
i admit that
i choose u cause i was injured before

guess that injure will be miss with u
finally, just enjoy decision
in more day, more sure with u
u show me love

can feeling happy, jealous cause of u
but, u never say why ?

two years with feel that not be clearly explain
when i know, u was with other
who has close to u from i know u
why ?

why u don't say anything about that
that u will be with other girl ?

after school's farewell, i just recognize

before i looking for the clarity about she and u
i was cry cause of a dream about u and her


why ?
why u let me hoping u for two  years ?
why u let me try to love u more ?
why u let me ?

please answer in front of my face
so, i can clearly realize
that u're not for me
that i don't need to hope to u

i very disappointed about that all
about u, even about me
i had some nightmare since that happen
i can't sleep, rare to be in a good mood for a few days

and after that, i was missed friends who i have
one by one, they were get away
because of my fault
i'm so lonely

finally, i can forgive
but, u don't understand
hard for me to find my feel when i feel about u
like a long time ago

cause i realized those are faults of me
i'm very sorry
but, i also give thanks to u
u have made me realize my all faults so i can changing myself

kekangan

ya aku wanita lemah 
mudah merindu, mudah menangis, mudah kehilangan, mudah merasa
ya, aku sudah terbiasa dijaga & terjaga
tapi aku tak terbiasa menjadi seorang kakak

padahal aku sulung
mungkin karena waktu
mungkin juga keadaanku
tapi aku diajari untuk tidak menyalahkan hal lain
selain diriku

andai saja..
andai saja..
andai saja..
andai saja..

aku tidak boleh terlalu berharap 
karena itu hanya akan menghambat semua
karena menurutku harapan itu membayangkan saja
bukan melakukan

terinspirasi oleh mimpi

suatu hari Shi diajak orang tuanya menghadiri sebuah undangan. Shi disuruh menunggu di teras. lalu dia bertemu seorang laki". dan mereka bermain bersama. Bambam(lelaki) yang bermain dengan Shi mempertontonkan permainan sulap kartu yang dia bisa. karena Shi baru pertama kali melihat sulap kartu langsung dengan mata kepalanya sendiri, Shi beranggapan yang tadi keren
selesaimelakukan perrtuhjukan sulap kartu, Bambam berlutut dengan posis satu kaki ditekuk setengah keatas dan dia menggenggam kedua tangan Shi yang saat itu mengenakan baju serba biru muda. Bambam bertanya "bagaimana peasaanmu tadi saat bermain bersamaku ?"
dan Shi mejawab "senang, senang sekali"
adzan maghrib pun datang bersamaan dengan supir yang menjemput keluarga kecil Shi. 

***

saat pembagian kelas, Shi mendapat kelas dengan seorang lelaki bertopi. sebangku pula. dan sepertiny dia agak autis, kenapa bisa menyimpulkan demikian ? itu karena waktu Shi pergi meninggalkan dia sendiri, dia marah. misalnya saat Shi pergi dengan lelaki lain, dia menyobeki kulit meja yang terbuat dari kayu. seperti horor O.o

mungkin karena laki" sebangkunya itu cemburu, suka pada Shi

opiniku

perang status

aneh, soalnya yang main status kan bukan cuma satu dua orang. banyak yang main juga, bisa susah. misal, ada satu cewe main status sama cowonya, bisa aja cowo lain yang sensitif, yang suka sama si cewe ngira si cewe suka sama dia. padahal engga. kecewa, dia bilang cewe itu php
padahal emang bukan untuk dia. 

modus

modus ? modus kan cara untuk menggapai sesuatu yang diinginkan, ada juga rumus matematika; modus, dan bukan berarti kebohongan terselubung. emang sii, tergantung cara pandang seseorang

pria impian (pribadi)

tinggi, bertanggung jawab, easy going, gentle, cerdas, soleh, romantis ; bisa main gitar or piano aja,ga harus sampe tuker"an barang, kalo cuma tuker sementara, apa gunanya, mendingan dikasiin sekalian atau sampe berbuat zina, seperti ; pegangan tangan, peluk"an, apalagi cium"an, kalo di sms sii gapapa. *hehe

naif

gimana sii ? baik, lurus-lurus aja dibilang naif. kalo jahat dibilang nakal. kalo gila dibilang asik. 

kebalik

sekarang banyak cewe kerja, cowo nganggur

aneh tuh..

cewe yang mutusin, cewe yang nangis. berat banget sii kerjaan cewe

playboy

perasaan makin banyak playboynya sekarang. kata aku sii makin banyak playboy itu tanda" mau kiamat. ya ga ? bayangin aja, satu cowonya, banyak cewenya, itu kan salah satu tandanya. di al-quran juga ada; satu laki" untuk lima puluh perempuan. ga serem gitu ya cowonya ? kalo cewe sii aku yakin ga ada yang mau diduain
apalagi kalo di lima puluhin *LOL

only moments

she said i have poetry words
but in the communication i'm standard
they said i'm a sanguinist girl
but in my paper words, i feel like a melancolist
he (my father) said i'm beauty
example ; beauty hair like black and thick
but when i see the other, i say that every girls having their own beauty
cause many girls whose much beautiful
then, i wanna telling a story
about all seasons that there in my ways 
enjoy ^^


first

i'm a melancolist little girl
i likes romantic cartoons
dreaming about a happy ending
i'm a cry baby
that was when i in playground till grade three elementary school
in that time, there's someone i like
he's tall and handsome and has white skin
i look at him from playground, haha =D
he has in playground and instruction in mosque where same as me
we're ever exchange trifle
also in elementary school, he in SDN 4 and i'm in 6 (his school close to mine)
and he shoots me when we were graduated from elementary by sms
but i'm reject him
actually, till i have an ill who've fall me for almost a year in house

second

when i was in fourth till i'm in junior high sxhool
i plegmatist girl
i feel i have something different from my friends
i feels like stranger in there
but there's place when i found who is my best pals
i felt in fun
in junior high school, i found someone who make me interest in him
he's cool, a basketball player, tall, has a white skin
he like to bothering me at seventh
and my class is same as him for two times, seventh and ninth
and my pal say "ever heard issue that he likes me, but when he heard it, he get mad"
whatever.. that's not important again for me now
just leave

third

i was in senior high school
i always have spirit in my days
i'm a sanguinist
i can dreaming about my new world that fun like songs
i can find a lot of characters in there
that true, but..
the truth, they not as fun as i thinking before
there i know what's fun, sick, love, needed, the want, cheats and hate means to me
and many more

fourth

when i've graduate, i wont have a collage in a while
cause i must make better my health for
they said that collage time is busy only
while i'm in this condition what forbidden to get stress
but i was lonely when i was at home
and  now, i know what's truth means
althought i'm still have some fears about it
cause no one who want tells me

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Andini Sufi Rizkyanti

Hai, namaku Andini Sufi Rizkyanti. panggil aja aku Andin. aku tinggal di Bandung. tepatnya di jl Sudirman G114 Baros Cimahi. aku lahir tanggal 9 Juni 1995. aku kurang ngerti sii cara bikin blog. tapi, aku mau coba share aja ya
 tanggal 7 Juli 2012 aku baru aja pindah kesini. sebelumnya aku tinggal di jl Samratulangi H68. aku punya adik laki" namanya Zulfikar Adi Wiguna. dulu dia lebi kecil dari aku. sekarang dia uda lebi tinggi dari aku. cita" dia sekarang jadi dokter. padahal aku yang pengen jadi dokter. cita"ku berubah sejak aku ga bisa masuk kelas IPA.
itu karena nilai aku kurang pas ujian kenaikan kelas X kemaren. soalnya aku ga bisa ngebuletin LJK sendiri, & mungkin aku kurang pinter. waktu kelas X aku sekolah di SMA negeri. tapi mulai dari kelas XI aku pindah ke MA Multiteknik Asih Putera di cihanjuang. dan aku pindah dari sekolah Negeri ke Swasta karena aku kurang mampu.
bukan kurang mampu secara materi. tapi karena aku belum bisa mandiri. aku belum bisa karena aku terjangkit penyakit demam berdarah pada tahun 2003 sampai sekarang. uda 9  tahun. tapi alhamdulillah dari

brain wash/ DSA

kayaknya abis cuci otak, lupa ingatan deh hehe
lalu..

jadi kayak waktu kecil lagi pikirannya, jadi pengen jadi guru TK lagi
aku kan deket sama anak" kecil, hehe :P aku uda pernah kepikiran dari dulu malah dulu pengennya jadi dokter, tapi sejak aku masuk IPS, aku pengen jadi psikolog. IPS kan susah untuk jadi dokter. setelah aku tau bahwa PGnya paling tinggi di indo, jadlah ; psikologi UGM rencana B, UPI/ semacamnya jadi pilihan pertama

maaf ****, aku tau kamu kecewa,karena keyakinan kita yang sama ; masuk psikologi ugm itu tak dapat ku pertahankan. aku hanya gamau cengeng lagi, apalagi didepan kamu, maaf ya =)

aku inget mata itu, ambisius, terasa sama sepertiku, bukan berarti kamu ga bisa, hanya saja untukku, itu adalah kemungkinan yang kecil banget

tapi kalo itu kamu, aku yakin kamu lebi bisa daripada aku, yakinilah diri kamu sendiri, yakinkan kamu bisa, pasti bisa

kalo aku dapet yang rencana B juga akan ku jadiin pilihan A (dream come true banget bagi aku)

i wanna perfecting myself(dari sisi yang lain)

bagi kamu sii bisa koq, kamu kan lebi bisa usaha daripada aku, dan insyaallah aku juga akan berusaha =)

senyum dulu dong, semangat ya =)